All Those Monsters in My Closet

Below are 3 videos.. they speak to what I am feeling right now and what I will be writing about ... later, after I have considered them, and me in them, for awhile. They seem to say everything... down to the smashing of the car in anger in "Ghosts". The first one is the inner child meeting her life,then the woman she becomes, followed by an old woman, who is me... and you, if you choose to see yourself in it.

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Priscilla Ahn's - "A Dream"



Priscilla Ahn's - "A Dream"

Lyrics:

I was a little girl alone in my little world who dreamed of a little home for me.
I played pretend between the trees, and fed my houseguests bark and leaves, and laughed in my pretty bed of green.

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest swing.
I had a dream.

Long walks in the dark through woods grown behind the park, I asked God who I'm supposed to be.
The stars smiled down on me, God answered in silent reverie. I said a prayer and fell asleep.

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest tree.
I had a dream.

Now I'm old and feeling grey. I don't know what's left to say about this life I'm willing to leave.
I lived it full and I lived it well, there's many tales I've lived to tell. I'm ready now, I'm ready now, I'm ready now to fly from the highest wing.

I had a dream

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Ladytron - Ghosts



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KmpvDG-fEaA

Ladytron - Ghosts

Lyrics:

In the first days
of the spring time
made you a prince with a thousand enemies
made a trail of
of a thousand tears
made you a prisoner inside your own frequency

There's a ghost in me
who wants to say "I'm sorry"
Doesn't mean I'm sorry

At the first hour
of the springtime
made you a prince with a thousand enemies

now I see you
from the corner
clock strikes
and I know you will be drinking alone

There's a ghost in me
who wants to say "I'm sorry"
Doesn't mean I'm sorry.

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Ladytron - Destroy Everything You Touch



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=klRF87dsLCw

Lyrics:

Destroy everything you touch today
Destroy me this way
Anything that may desert you
So it cannot hurt you

You only have to look behind you
At who's undermined you
Destroy everything you touch today
Destroy me this way

Everything you touch you don't feel
Do not know what you steal
Shakes your hand
Takes your gun
Walks you out of the sun

What you touch you don't feel
Do not know what you steal
Destroy everything you touch today
Please destroy me this way

Destroy everything you touch today
Destroy me this way
Anything that may delay you
Might just save you

You only have to look behind you
At who's underlined you
Destroy everything you touch today
Destroy me this way

Everything you touch you don't feel
Do not know what you steal
Shakes your hand
Takes your gun
Walks you out of the sun

What you touch you don't feel
Do not know what you steal
Destroy everything you touch today
Please destroy me this way

Everything you touch you don't feel
Do not know what you steal
Shakes your hand
Takes your gun
Walks you out of the sun

What you touch you don't feel
Do not know what you steal
Destroy everything you touch today
Please destroy me this way

Everything you touch you don't feel
Do not know what you steal
Shakes your hand
Takes your gun
Walks you out of the sun

What you touch you don't feel
Do not know what you steal
Destroy everything you touch today
Please destroy me this way

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Ed McCormack of Gallery & Studio Magazines Review of Kathy Ostman-Magnusen Artwork

Ed McCormack of Gallery and Studio Magazines Review of my artwork:



Monkdogz Urban Art's add in the same issue:



Gallery and Studio Magazine:


http://www.galleryandstudio.com

To view more of the art that Mr. McCormack refers to in his interview check out my website.

Primal Gallery:

http://www.kathyostman-magnusen.com/Kathy_Ostman-Magnusen_Art/%22Primal_Series%22_Gallery.html

About My Primal Series:

http://www.kathyostman-magnusen.com/Kathy_Ostman-Magnusen_Art/About_My_Primal_Series.html

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"Vampire Let Me Coax You Past Your Evil Intent"

This painting is from my "ke ala o Pele" series... sorry, I have so many painting I would have to look it up.. sorry. I do know that it is a 36x48 oil on canvas... lol

OK... turn on the music/utube for my poem below.




"Vampire Let Me Coax You Past Your Evil Intent"

Vampire
let me coax you past this now.
Vampire
let me tell you how to draw
a scorpion
and the wings of yore.
Please
have a bit of mercy
will you?
Mercy
on me
and please
let it be
allowed
to
think
as well...
is that too much to ask?

Vampire
let me sing.
Please.

"They"
Those people in the midst of the condemned
including me
or is that me too narcissistic?
Perhaps
and yet
I see what I do see.

And so
take note
voices
do they
and can we
reach
higher
than we ever thought we could?
Call out.
Can we
at least bow our heads
and take notice?

Those who are in fact evil
yes
evil
indeed
set along anyones pathway
we see them
and then
plead.
Fire on the land
amid the open seas
when and where will this story end?

I shudder
eyes that do spy on all
from time
you know it too
right?
Will they somehow be forgotten?
At least by me.
And yet
reluctantly
and equally
well remembered
under traces of our conscience
of a well induced
time
line.
OMG... yes, hopefully!

Scribbled within their plans
an evil doers moods
set upon a lands circumference
light
yet mysteriously
dark
coming through.
I am a victim of a dicodemy
and a vengeance of my own minds
eye.
I wish that I could just let it rest here
within this sigh
but let me watch it
for now
to decide
dicodemy arise.

I am meditative
I am indeed criticized
by my own suspicious moves.
A vampire flying quickly
across a darkened mind
and within its potential
a dark setting moon
of gloom.
And all the while
this gothic tune
became too great
to be known
to certain fairies
who did not understand colors
nor the height of a fires flame.
Ohh dear fairies
not to worry
tis a transgression of sainthood
not perceived by anyone
or is it
everyone?

Well.. let me take that back
yes let me do that
for when I view the ice upon the land
and the fire that pursues it
I am enamored enough to say
it is me
it is you
and the evil or good that passes this way
will forever remain
despite what we complain about.
Everything will keep its pace
and stay
forever in their own ways
lest of course
passion
yes passion
breaks right through.

20 June 2009
by Kathy Ostman-Magnusen

If You Find Her... If She Hears You...

"Casino" 36x48 oil on canvas

"Faery Dragons Roar For Prisoners of Lost Youth and Thus They Cried For a Beautiful Queens Passing"

"The Secret" 36x48 oil on canvas


Youth sought after and a Faery Dragons longing to give a queen eternal youth... to no avail.

"Faery Dragons Roar For Prisoners of Lost Youth and Thus They Cried For a Beautiful Queens Passing"

Faery dragons
roar for prisoners of beauty
when they are caught
in-between
the seasons.

It's true.

Yet more to this tale
of a dragon's queen
seasoned forever
blue.

Victims of time
that age doth ultimately meet
ignoring any setting suns
or romantic affairs
a hero doth meet.
Their set plans
despite anyone's time-line
destiny is of a certainty
pursued.

Protecting herself from the glass
a queen glanced shyly into a mirror.
Ohh, "If only"
was her lament.
If only a different circumstance
age had greeted
a youthful repose
and yet..
No.

Disbelieving strangers
as they said it was not true
a narcissistic queen
left the hallway
and walked into her own
lonely
gloom.
Perhaps it was a fairy dragon
needing her at a dawning midnight
to enhance the queens beauty
and find here forever youthfully
for him
groomed.

Spirits of the dead
sounding off with their whistles
reaching whatever vibrations
a dragon once slain
might recall.

There will thus
always be
gentle souls
who circle round a babies laughter
tending to the scents in the air.
Babies breath
bringing the lovely sound of flowers
to cradle every infants gateway
in a bed of roses
and whisper of loving
care.

So beware
to those who seek a youthful view
for the queen did pass
once she left the dragons room.
Slipping into a trance
of a sparkle
on a lake
that let the moon shine through.
Into a destiny
nebulous swoon
for after the queen met a babies laughter
the fairy dragon sadly
knew...
His queen
mortal be
slipped past eternity
and into the galaxy
of a wilting flowers bloom.

Copyright 2009
by Kathy Ostman-Magnusen


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ABOUT Kathy Ostman-Magnusen: I am an artist, represented by Monkdogz Urban Art, New York. ORIGINAL ART may be purchased through Monkdogz: http://www.monkdogz.com/chelseagallery/artistart/Magnusen/artist_magnusen.htm

"Sound, Tis Such a Lovely Vibration - Don't You Think?"

"The Dancer" 36x48 oil on canvas
Original available through Monkdogz Urban Art http://www.monkdogz.com

From lovely ballerinas, footprint sounds on the ground, to a simple pen to paper, where poetry is found, sound, 'tis written about...

TURN ON THE MUSIC:




"Sound, Tis Such a Lovely Vibration - Don't You Think?"

Vibrations that travel through the air
I am in awe.
If I stand still I can measure them
if only within my soul
while holding my breath
a note to know.
From a fragrant distance
I can feel its humming presence
onomatopoeia put to the test
winging through the trees
past silence.

Impressions of sound
vibrations touching my skin
traveling waves
composed by lenders of sacred visions
where true wisdom
begins.

Such a gift is sound
broadcast from our lips
composed by artists
wind in trees
oceans roar
birds tending to their hungry fledglings
televisions from an open window
right next door
cars passing by
airplanes in the sky
opening my eyes
I hear
the world
as it goes by.

Music
luscious muse
floating through the air
and connecting to this day
inside our atmosphere.
All over my anticipating being
dreams
never that remote
frequencies enticed
made perfectly clear.

From Ballerinas
Cinderella embarks
from their tip toes on stage
rhythm embraced
with what dwells in the heart
thus a brilliant transcending
of a most glorious
holiest art.

My heart waltzes past the open door
sensations found
walking over pebbles on the road
feet causing a moving sound
my mood goes from lowly
into a highlight
appreciating
the simplest
of sounds.

Pencil to paper
scribbling down poetry
rounds.
People in places
I never will meet
writing in silence
for a word to speak.
A tiny utterance of noise
meeting pen to paper
describing inner thoughts
acoustics on play here
creating giant noises
in a tiny minds eye
from an anticipating
hearts sigh.

Sound, tis such a lovely vibration.
Don't you think?

by Kathy Ostman-Magnusen
copyright 2009

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Inspiration for Artists

Ohh YOU MUST watch this UTube if you love art at all..

"Notorious Kahlo I Love You I Do - As I Stand in the Shadows Weeping For You"

These two quotes of Frida Kahlo's are significant. They are indeed the most significant quotes of hers to understand her life and the dedication to explaining who she was as a human being. The bigger more obvious effort being her art of course. It is within pure honesty that the artist shines and Kahlo's star shines for her tonight.

"I paint self portraits because I am the person I know best."

"I hope the departure is joyful and I hope never to return." ~Frida Kahlo

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It is for Frida then that I write:

"Notorious Kahlo I Love You I Do - As I Stand in the Shadows Weeping For You"

Mexican art goddess
Frida Kahlo
Spanish gem
rebellious thunder
independent glamour queen
of a most glorious wonder.

Shocking conservative foes
dressing her canvases
with mirrors
from her very own
battered
and injured soul.

Notorious Kahlo
I love you I do
as I stand in the shadows
weeping for you.

If I do not understand
mine own pain
I will lust after Frida
and her soulful
honestly delivered
claims.

Mexican goddess
tears marked her days
you and I should remember
such courage
displayed.

Wounded in body
demons of the dark
yet despite convalescence
on canvas
this goddess
left her deepest remarks.

Diego Rivera
came into her life
murals of politics
and Mexican strife.
France did know them
an artists pair
who danced in their art scene
reputations to flair.

Ahh feminist Frida
I light candles to you
when alone in my closet
unsure of what to do.
Cult figure I honor
write notes on my door
remember Ms Kahlo
who painted her soul's roar.

Who better to paint
than the one, one knows best
from cradle to grave
Frida revealed her own struggles
and difficult tests.

Vibrant colors
sure of her gestures
leaving no misunderstanding
Frida Kahlo said and painted
exactly
what her heart measured.

Sexuality not ignored
as some women do
Frido Kahlo said it all
as she thought her life through.

She gave herself freedom
creative displays
dramatic symbolism
gave us visions
within and without
her cast prison.

Within your bodies torturous doorman
your efforts to explore
courageous decisions
will forever ignite me
past the tunes
of simple
folklore.

Notorious Kahlo
I love you I do
as I stand in the shadows
weeping for you.

Kathy Ostman-Magnusen
copyright 2009

Umbrellas and the Circus

The two paintings are by me. One is titled "Circus"36x48 oil on canvas and the other one is a detail of "Neon's Obsession" by me, da, Kathy Ostman-Magnusen.

Anyway.. I love the drama of the video below.

Seduction Comes in Black and White as Well

Seduction,
I think a thousand and one poems could be written about this video (below) alone... and within that realm of creativity thus flows colors onto canvas; clay between my fingers; wet and waiting to form everything felt within the emotions provoked by the air I breathe within these very seconds.

Seduction is also the name of my painting (above) a 24x36 oil on canvas.

Interesting to note that this video was originally done in 1944.

....this mortal coil/song to the siren/maya deren



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r1K0WzqCLfE

The Day I Saw Salvador Dali Eat Paper-How to Think Outside the Box?

"Circus" 36x48 oil on canvas by Kathy Ostman-Magnusen

How to think outside the box? Well here is one idea.. lol! A few months before Salvador Dali died I was at a gallery in San Francisco, who featured him. They had a video playing continually of him, rolling paper up in a ball and eating it. True. I was for whatever reason intrigued by that. Questions in my mind mounted about him. It seemed desperate as far as art expression goes to find value in eating rolled up paper wads. Was he going mad or had he always been mad or was I somehow being short sighted and missing some extraordinary expression of artistic courage? Was I 'not hip', not in the inner circle of knowing what makes real art? I did not know much about Dali then and I confess I thought it odd and actually kinda coo coo?

Salvador Dali died a short time later and I could only think of him eating paper with that crazy mustache of his.

Since then I have acquired several books about him to add to my art library. He was sure a strange and dare I say, twisted in many ways, guy. I have to ask myself what it takes to stand out in the art world. Does it take a bit of outrageous thinking to create provocative art? To a certain extent I think so... yup, I do! I guess I have to say, "Viva la twist", sometimes, because what came forth from his artistic soul, gave us visuals that are not only memorable, but quite thought provoking. An artist's goal is always to create a new avenue of thought which Dali did indeed accomplish.

Not to worry, I am not going to suggest as a prerequisite to understanding art we must all start eating paper. But, I do think by that crazy gesture of Dali's, that outside of the box thinking, might just be whatever comes to mind at the time. I may be over thinking it all, and yet it is fun to think about doing something outrageous, to perform nonsense that feels fun. Maybe go to a restaurant in a wild (to you) outfit and pretending to be someone completely different from who you or I are. I would not think that paper would digest all that well (lol), so stay away from being that far over the top, OK? Think outrage though, think farther and let the stars in.

by Kathy Ostman-Magnusen
copyright 2009

Kathy Ostman-Magnusen
http://www.kathysart.com
Represented by:
Monkdogz Urban Art, New York
http://www.monkdogz.com

Inspired by Antony & The Johnsons & Epilegsy Dancing from The Crying Light

Antony... ohh man, I just adore you today!! So much inspiration from your music and your interview.. below. Thank you!!



Antony & The Johnsons: Epilepsy Is Dancing

This first single, from the The Crying Light LP, was directed by the production team collectively named AFAS.

INTERVIEW with Antony about THE CRYING LIGHT




"Daylight and the Sun"


Kathy Ostman-Magnusen
http://www.kathysart.com
Represented by:
Monkdogz Urban Art, New York, NY
http://www.monkdogz.com

Song To The Siren-Mermaids and Such

This Mortal Coil - Song to the Siren "Cocteau Twins" is on the next post but this song by them reminded me of the Tim Buckley's version from long ago.

Tim Buckley - Song To The Siren subtítulos en castellano



Ahh inspiration.. breathe it in...

Cocteau Twins- Those eyes, that mouth.

This video is rated R OK? So don't watch it if you are offended by nudity.



The sculptures.. Camille Claudel.. Rodin.. ahh the greatest love story ever because its passion was encased in art.

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Inspiration is Found If We Seek it Out

Ahh the inspiration.. the muse of music touching that passion that wants to bleed out of our eyes.

I have been doing so many political sites, speaking out for Obama, because I feel it is so important.. yet I have neglected my art.. my passion that touches the colors and winds up on my canvas. I have neglected the clay between my fingers. Ahh Camille Claudel.. I think of you often despite my outside adventures of hoping that in some way, some tiny way, I can help to change the world for good, but supporting Barack.

I came across this You Tube today and it inspired me as well as the others I have posted.

"Make This Go On Forever Romance Montage"



PreRaphaelite Passione



This Mortal Coil - Song to the Siren "Cocteau Twins"



Gosh.. I had forgotten how much I love th Cocteau Twins.. humm must do a Squidoo lens on them1 smile..

Vote For "Primal 1" on Barebrush For October #5 Please

Help! I need your VOTE for my art, "Primal 1" on Barebrush! Click #5 to the right.

http://www.barebrush.com/NOTM/index.html

Thanks for your help!

Aloha, Kathy

Note: Barebrush is an R Rated site.

Barebrush-VOTE FOR ME!

Aloha,

Will you vote for my painting? It has been nominated for the Curators Choice Awards by juror Claudia Seymour. It is October 5. Voting is to the right.. it'll just take a second, click two times and you are done.


http://barebrush.com/NOTM/Archives/wp_Nudes_10-2008.html

The painting selected has been shown in New York at Monkdogz Urban Art and is part of their inventory. Claudia Seymour is the president of the historic Salmagundi Club, NYC.

Thanks so much! Kathy

Claudia Seymour Picks "Primal 1" by Kathy Ostman-Magnusen-Barebrush Competition

My art, "Primal 1", was selected for the Barebrush N*des-of-the-Month October 2008 calendar by Claudia Seymour, president of the historic Salmagundi Club in Greenwich Village.


Salmagundi Club 47 Fifth Avenue, New York, N.Y.


'Parlor'




Salmagundi Club, the oldest artist club in New York, the Salmagundi Center for American Art, has two galleries open to the general public 1-5pm daily. Our offices are located on the third floor, and will be open on weekdays 3-5pm and staffed by volunteers. If you are in the area, come in and look us up! Best to call ahead of time, 646-704-8000.


Salmagundi Club 47 Fifth Avenue, New York, N.Y.10003
(at 12 St).
tel. 646-704-8000


My painting "Primal 1"chosen by Claudia Seymour-President Historic Salmagundi Club-Greenwich Village, New York in Barebrush competition can be seen at:

http://www.barebrush.com/listing_CS08a/art_pages/BB4669_43e.html

Current Listings:
http://barebrush.blogspot.com/search?q=kathy+ostman-magnusen/

Artist's Statement:

http://www.barebrush.com/Featured/KathyOstman-Magnusen.html


"Primal 1" can be seen at Monkdogz Urban Art, New York, who represents me- Ask for Bob Hogge:

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Monkdogz Inventory of Kathy Ostman-Magnusen Work including "Primal 1":

http://www.monkdogz.com/chelseagallery/inventory_magnusen.htm

About Kathy Ostman-Magnusen on Monkdogz:
http://www.monkdogz.com/chelseagallery/artistart/Magnusen/artist_magnusen.htm

FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE

New York, NY – September 4, 2008. All visual artists were invited by BAREBRUSH's founder and CEO, Ilene Skeen to submit art of the nude for the October 2008 N*des-of-the-Month calendar contest.

Claudia's official site: http://www.claudiaseymour.com/

Bio:

Claudia Seymour only began painting in 1996. She grew up in St. Paul, Minnesota and attended Duke University in North Carolina, where she majored in English and met her future husband. After time in Florida, Colorado, London and New York City, where she received her Master's in English, her and her family landed in New Canaan, Connecticut.

Claudia Seymour, president of the historic Salmagundi Club in New York (SCNY) and a prize-winning, widely collected artist, served as guest curator for October 2008. Although generally thought of as a "traditional" art venue, the Salmagundi Club has been enthusiastically supportive of the barebrush project since its inception. The late, past president of SCNY, Richard Pionk, was curator for the barebrush October 2006 calendar exhibition.


Frank C. Wright Medal of Honor plus
CLAUDIA SEYMOUR
Lemons, Dye Pots and Old Inks


The Salmagundi Club, also known as the Salmagundi Art Club, was founded in 1871 in Greenwich Village, Manhattan, New York City, New York, in the United States. It is currently located at 47 Fifth Avenue. As of 2005,[1] the Salmagundi Club has over six hundred members.

For nearly 140 years, the Salmagundi Club has served as a center for fine arts and artists, conducting art exhibitions, art classes, demonstrations, and art auctions, and hosting many other events.
From the Barebush site:

Claudia had this to say about the art of the nude:

"I think the hardest aspect is to present reality and the beauty of the human form without descending into hyper realism or caricature. A portrayal of the nude should have a certain amount of intrinsic grace yet preserve the traditional artistic requirements of value, edge, and tone. This is much easier said than done."


About the October calendar, Ilene Skeen, owner of Barebush, noted, "Looking at Claudia's work, I was first struck by the clarity of form presented in the classical tradition, but looking longer, especially at her latest pieces, I noticed that her use of space and surface is certainly modern. When I mentioned that barebrush welcomes all media, all styles, Claudia said that she looks at and learns from all types of art. Ongoing, she has been 'trying to get the Club to accept and show a wider variety of work.' " Skeen continued, "I'm very pleased that barebrush is bringing modern and traditional sensibilities together. This is an interesting opportunity for barebrush artists."

"Within Animated Faery Pictures My Lily Discovers Rainbows or Drawings of Scorpions"

She dances within animated faery pictures, laced with rainbows. And yet...my damsel is sometimes in distress,drawings of scorpions, those grim reaper drawings, haunt us both.This is a rewrite of the poem below... I started thinking maybe it seemed too dismal and it was never really intended to end on that note.

"Within Animated Faery Pictures My Lily Discovers Rainbows or Drawings of Scorpions"


Lily is my inner child.
She dances within animated faery pictures
laced with rainbows.
She beacons a light hearted soul
sometimes found in me.
Lily...
that's what I've named her.
I think of her as someone separate
from me
my solace
my pretend
celtic design tattoos of creativity.
We often sit together
sipping tea
seeking magic
faries and mermaids color pages.
We keep leaves in our pockets
and baby roses at our table.

And yet...
my damsel is sometimes in distress
drawings of scorpions
those grim reaper drawings
haunt us both.

Sometimes
I think of her alone
worried
regretting... always
cold
lonely
fearful
growing older
not pretty anymore
abandoned by creativity
ignored
insignificant
inadequate
seeking out, but not finding validation
never measuring up
still struggling despite her efforts to achieve
sitting on the side of the road
with a cup.
Ahh yes my Lily of drama!

Lily is all the things I fear and more.

So that I might have compassion for the Lily 'in me',

I think of Lily...
her fears
and try to cheer her up!
What are friends for?

She does not need to feel so alone
I am here to help her.

I try to remind her,
that yes!
It IS possible to stand inside a rainbow
that leaves on trees
and baby roses
are tokens that she is worthy of my friendship.
And I sing songs to her
with lyrics that say
she is capable
and can overcome the things she frets about.

Oft times we care for others
more than our our own selves
and forget we exist at all.

I try to give Lily an out, a new road
instead of the same road,
that includes sadness
or whatever I feel causes me or Lily to falter.

Thus I refer to Lily a lot in things I write,
animated faery pictures I guess.
Sometimes Lily falls
and I do too
drawings of scorpions
outshine the possibility of angels.
But...
the more I decide to love me back
love Lily
the warmer we both are.

Name your inner child too, humm?
Offer that side of you a name
and then embrace it
step right 'inside' that rainbow.

Aloha from Lily... and me.

19 September 2008
Kathy Ostman-Magnusen
copyright 2008

The image is of my painting, "Circus" 36x48 oil on canvas

I am represented by Monkdogz Urban Art in New York:


http://monkdogz.com/chelseagallery/artistart/Magnusen/artist_magnusen.htm

Don't forget my house if for sale in Hawaii:

http://www.kathysart.blogspot.com

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"Lily Is My Inner Child,Sometimes Feeling Alone-But I Am Here to Help Her"

"Lily Is My Inner Child,Sometimes Feeling Alone-But I Am Here to Help Her"

Lily is my inner child
that's what I've named her.
I think of her as someone separate
from me.

Sometimes
I think of her alone
worried
regretting... always
cold
lonely
fearful
growing older
not pretty anymore
abandoned by creativity
ignored
insignificant
inadequate
seeking out, but not finding validation
never measuring up
still struggling despite her efforts to achieve
sitting on the side of the road
with a cup.

Lily is all the things I fear and more...
so that I might have compassion for the Lily 'in me'.

I think of Lily...
her fears
and try to cheer her up!
What are friends for?

She does not need to feel so alone
I am here to help her.

I try to remind her,
that yes!
It IS possible to stand inside a rainbow
that leaves on trees
and baby roses
are tokens that she is worthy of my friendship.
And I sing songs to her
with lyrics that say
she is capable
and can overcome the things she frets about.

Oft times we care for others
more than our our own selves
and forget we exist at all.

I try to give Lily an out, a new road
instead of the same road,
that includes sadness
or whatever I feel causes me or Lily to falter.

Thus I refer to Lily a lot in things I write.
Sometimes Lily falls
and I do too
but the more I decide to love me back
love Lily
the warmer we both are.

Name your inner child too, humm?
Offer that side of you a name
and then embrace it.

Aloha from Lily... and me.

17 September 2008
Kathy Ostman-Magnusen

I am represented by Monkdogz Urban Art in New York:


http://monkdogz.com/chelseagallery/artistart/Magnusen/artist_magnusen.htm

Don't forget my house if for sale in Hawaii:

http://www.kathysart.blogspot.com

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Jean Marc Calvet Solo Exhibition

HAPPENINGS AT MONKDOGZ:

Preliminary interview of Jean-Marc Calvet for a feature documentary by Dominic Allan

Ella Manor Captures the soul of Jean Marc Calvet for the duration of a photo-shoot.

Monkdogz represents Shigeru Mizuki's woodblock prints

On exhibit Oct. 16 through Nov. 8th When fashion meets the artworld: Katya Leonovich

"7 Deadly Sins" Sylvia Hennequin "Darwinian Dreams"
Nov. 13 - Dec. 13, 2008

More info: Esther Barend "Revelation" Nov. 13 - Dec. 13, 2008

More info:

"The New Yorkers" An interview with Sebastien Aurillon


"Gallery & Studio Magazine" Artist Promotion Monkdogz wishes much luck and success to Ed McCormack on his
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Jean Marc Calvet

"REDEMPTION"

A Solo Exhibition



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ABOUT Kathy Ostman-Magnusen:

I paint and sculpt female fantasy art and map fairy tale adventures. I dream of beautiful women on canvas and art of exotic women. My career has ALWAYS been art. It has up and downs, for creativity is a very tempestuous lover. Some days I hate it, but I cannot help myself. I succumb to its relentless outbursts that include too many colors to ignore, not always perfect but always striving.

I have illustrated for Hay House Inc.,"Meditations of Women Who Do Too Much" CARDS, taken from Anne Wilson Schaef's book. I also illustrated for Neil Davidson, who was considered for the Pulitzer Prize in feature writing, and several other publications. My paintings are collected worldwide.

Giclee canvas art work, greeting cards and posters are available for sale on my website:

http://www.kathysart.com

Sign up for my mailing list: FREE ART GIFTS suitable for children: Drawings of whimsical angel pictures, legends of mermaids and fairies in art. Tiny angels whisper fantasy art for shrink art, or coloring pages. Also a "Letter From the Tooth Fairy", ya just never know when you might need one!

I am Represented by:

Monkdogz Urban Art, Inc., 547 West 27th Street, 5th floor, New York, NY 10001

ORIGINAL ART may be purchased through Monkdogz

http://www.monkdogz.com

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